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Post by Abbydoodle on Aug 17, 2013 6:38:50 GMT 1
Heatherstorm’s eyes opened slowly, blinking against the early morning light glaring through the opening into the den. Her body let out a small shiver as the cool New-Leaf morning wind blew through. She peered around the den slowly, noting her sister, Raindrop, and her three newborn kids cuddled together, still asleep. She smiled slightly, looking at their tiny, yet healthy, bodies. Soon they too would be up at the crack of dawn, ready to play. However, now, as their eyes and ears were just beginning to open, they were content to cuddle with their mother.
Heatherstorm pushed into her den a bit more, noting the empty spot where her own kits-kit-should have been. She felt herself begin to panic. ‘What if he gets hurt out there; what if he gets lost and hungry? He really shouldn’t be out by himself without me knowing!’ She thought, panicking more every second. Just before a she burst, Heatherstorm took a deep breath. Her kit was no little baby anymore. He was already a few moons old, and definitely knew how to handle himself.
Heatherstorm tried to settle her fluttering heart, hearing in her head what her mate would always say: ‘Breath. Think about where Palekit is. Remember that he is getting old enough to be out a bit on his own. There are tons of cats around to surround him.’ The jittery she-cat took a deep breath, feeling her heart beat fast. Her heart slowed a bit, though her mind was still racing. Other cats wouldn’t really know how to watch him, or if he was in immediate danger. They didn’t know all of the signs of danger or sickness like she did.
Heatherstorm jumped up a second time, accidentally waking her sister slightly. “Sorry,” She whispered, tip-toeing out of the nursery. It didn’t matter what other cats thought. This was her kit. She knew what was best for him; no one else knew him like she did, even her mate. No one else could be trusted with him. No one.
The she-cat peered outside, looking around the camp. There were more cats around than she expected, including her sister talking to a few warriors. Stormshadow caught Heatherstorm’s eye and nodded, a questioning glint in her eye. Heatherstorm just turned her face away, saying nothing. It’s not like she wanted to tell her sister, who she hardly spoke to anyways, that she was worried that her kit was outside by himself. In fact, she didn’t want to tell anyone this at all. She would just check on him, make sure he was playing alright, and keep an eye on him from a distance. That is what mothers are supposed to do. This all made perfect sense to Heatherstorm. The only thing was that Palekit was nowhere to be seen in the camp.
“Palekit?” She called, searching the camp once more. He wasn’t outside the nursery, warrior’s den, elder’s den, or even Ghoststar’s. He wasn’t by the river-one of his favorite places to play, much to her dismay-nor talking to any warriors. Heatherstorm’s eyes were trained to hone in on his pale coat, despite the fact that it blended well with the ground. It was just something she taught herself to do.
“PALEKIT!” She called once more, her voice rising to more of a shout. Her heart started beating faster as she realized he didn’t seem to be in the camp. She always told him to play where she could see him. He knew not to run off or leave the camp. He always followed her order. But, if he wasn’t in the nursery, or out in the camp, then where was he?
Heatherstorm found herself beginning to frantically look in the difference dens, but to no prevail. He just wasn’t anywhere. Then, her eyes landed on the medicine cat’s den. Did, perhaps, Palekit fall ill? Did he not want to wake her? Or did no cat even think to wake her? Or, did he want to play in there? She didn’t want her kit anywhere near Rabbitfur.
“Palekit!” She called out once more as she charged into the medicine cat’s den. Immediately her eyes alighted with joy as she spotted her kit, who was frowning up at the menacing medicine cat. She caught the tail end of him making a comment about some sort of herb. Did he eat and herb? Or did Rabbitfur give him one?
“Where have you been? I have been looking everywhere for you!” She exclaimed as she raced up to him, giving his head a quick lick. “I was worried sick; I thought some other clan cat had carried you away! Don’t ever frighten me like that!” She said, her voice stern yet obviously filled with worry. She suddenly noticed the disappointed look on her kit’s face, and the way his shoulders were sagged. Something was upsetting him, and it was obviously Rabbitfur’s fault.
“You aren’t sick are you? Why are you in here?” She said, glancing worriedly at Rabbitfur, who was glaring at her kit. She seemed to be interrupting something. “You know, I think you’ve had enough fun for the morning. I think you need to come back to the nursery and rest, or at least play just outside. I don’t want you getting sick from anything that is still in here*” She said, hissing slightly toward the end.
“I’m sorry Rabbitfur, but I don’t want any more of my kits-I mean my kit-to be sick from being in here. He could accidentally eat something poisonous while in here!” She exclaimed. She looked at the other two cats in front of her and realized she had been shoving an onslaught of words toward them. She stopped herself, and gave her chest furs a few licks, a bit embarrassed.
(*Not entirely sure how much warriors know about sickness or germs and all. Hope this worked OOC: Well. This is long. A bit rambly. Er. Very rambly. I just kind of didn’t know where to end so I just kind of stopped, sorry bout that, it’s kind of late here and I’m exhausted. Hope this is okay. I was pretty sure they were in the medicine cat’s den, but not entirely. Hopefully they were. This had quite a bit of dialogue in it, hopefully leaving a bit to work with. Her searching around the camp could possibly bring other Waterclan cats into this roleplay too if they so wished (and you were okay this that…))
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Post by Greymuzzles on Aug 20, 2013 23:43:34 GMT 1
If he were to be honest with himself, Rabbitfur would have been surprised by the kits reaction to his stiff command; might have paused to give it deeper thought, and perhaps stumbled across certain facts that he wasn’t ordinarily equipped to spot. However, the aging medicine cat was in no mood for such contemplation or honesty, and instead opted to ignore that fleeting glimmer of surprise – to flick it away with a single irate twitch of an ear, and an ease that betrayed the frequency with which he side-stepped such unwelcome trains of thought. The slip didn’t so much as register within his eyes, allowing him to maintain his too-hard stare throughout the long pause that followed and finally – finally – salvage something of his strength and pride.
The openness and vulnerability of the past few moments was gone. Pushed back into the background, the shadows to which it belonged.
Unfortunately, he couldn’t say the same for his ever-observant eyes.
The problem with making a point through stares was the fact that one had to maintain eye contact for such stares to work, which meant that it was all but impossible to avoid noticing certain details about whomever the gaze was centred upon. In Rabbitfur’s case, these details were the very inflections of behaviour that were often so critical to one in his field, and also details that were applying themselves to a wholly unfamiliar context. Truth be told, the tiny tom knew he had an appalling grasp on the social aspect of behaviour and had never been much use at reading any sign that wasn’t connected to his own craft – a fact that had bought him low countless times before – and kits always seemed to be the most complicated of them all. His attempts to read them invariably went awry, and he had long since lost patience with the matter: come to believe that such nuances, unless speaking of injury or disease, weren’t worth his time.
But he couldn’t stop himself from noticing them.
Hawkfeather had seen to that.
The long dead healer had been something of a master at reading their clanmates and had often tried to teach that art to his apprentice, though he’d not had long enough to succeed. Unfortunately, he had had long enough to turn his lessons into a lasting habit, which meant that Rabbitfur couldn’t help picking up on the body language and gazes of his peers when he looked upon them, and couldn’t now avoid noting the way Palekit’s shoulders fell at his too-harsh words. This should have been a good thing, but the fact was that he had never really come to grips with what the signs meant…and it was something of a miracle that he could see the defeat that laced the kits body now.
A miracle, and a fluke.
The tom had barely identified it before he was throwing his initial interpretation aside, assuming, as always, that this gesture was yet one more mysterious signal of another cats disgust; an explanation that was confirmed by the unmoving gold eyes that bored into his own grey stare. Hawkfeather himself had said it: the eyes were the window to a cat’s real thoughts, and it was their look, always their look, that should be taken as the truth of a cats mind. It didn’t even occur to him that he himself was the living proof that this was not always the case, for his one-time mentor had said it, and that meant it must be right. Meant that even he must let more show in his gaze than he thought.
It was upon this gospel that Rabbitfur was inclined to act, and because of it that he was soon lifting his lip in a soundless growl, issuing the last warning he would give before he let his temper loose. The message was clear enough that even a feline who had no knowledge of him or his ways should have had no problem understanding it, and this particular kit, a cat who bothered him more than near any other member of the clan, would have been a fool to ignore its declaration. But he did ignore it. Was too caught up in playing the stubborn little ‘warrior’ to heed those signs that would keep him from further trouble.
In truth, the medicine cat’s expression had shifted but a heartbeat before Palekit had started to speak, leaving him little time to take note of it, but Rabbitfur was already too irate to care. In his mind it was a wilful rebellion, and a crime that would require a nice, sharp tongue lashing to prevent a repeat offence – even if such a tirade might keep the kitten from daring to visit him again. In fact, he was half-convinced that he would welcome such an outcome-
Knew in his heart that he would regret it
Wondered, somewhere beneath it all, why this idiot fluffball was rambling about a herb instead of getting whilst the going was good.
Despite himself, Rabbitfur found that he was faintly curious. It was often that one so young showed any interest in herbs, and he sensed that this was something that he should, perhaps, make some vague effort to encourage, if only because it might keep the youngster occupied and out of his den for longer periods of time. More than that, there was always the possibility, however slight, that Palekit had slipped out of camp and come across something of actual use – something that could prove to be important.
Now it was his sense of duty that leapt up to take control. Personal feelings couldn’t be allowed to get in the way of the clans wellbeing, and this was something he knew better than near anyone else – a philosophy that was so engrained within him that it might as well have been an instinct. It was one of the painfully few facets of his nature that had served him extremely well throughout his life, and it was easy for him to give into it. Easy to let it wipe the hostility from his features and bring up a more business-like air, then dredge up equally business-like words.
Unfortunately it was already far too late. The two toms were no longer alone.
The ginger she-cat arrived so swiftly that Rabbitfur had no opportunity to register or decipher her hurrying pawsteps, and even less chance to speak. Worse, he didn’t even have the time to ease the half-snarl from his lips; found his features frozen into a hostile mask by the surprise of her entrance, and the horrific realisation that she would almost certainly have seen it. Would know that the look had been turned upon her son, and, in her none-too-stable state, almost certainly leap to the wrong conclusion.
He shuffled backwards, the hard stare and brief curiosity replaced by barely concealed unease.
Unsurprisingly, the she-cat declined to let either of them greet her, or even respond to her words. Instead she fell into a cascade of scolding and concern that was hardly broken by breath, let alone pause, and filled his usually quiet den with a whirlwind of dizzying noise. Even Rabbitfur, who had faced more than his fair share of hysterical cats, could barely keep up with her talk, and it wasn’t long before he gave up trying completely, instead resigning himself to a distant, unfeeling stare and trying to decipher her meaning using her body alone. He failed, of course, just like he always did-
Until he caught the hissing lilt that laced her words.
There was an accusation there. It wasn’t said outright, but the content of her ramble, and that too-obvious hiss, had made her meaning clear enough, just as it had allowed the connected words to form into some semblance of sense within his whirling mind. Their sharp, unwelcome forms were enough to bring a certain clarity back to his mind and steel to his grey stare, and it wasn’t long before he really was snarling – a low, long, hissing growl that filled the den and bounced back at them from all sides, giving a certain added power to his narrowed eyes.
“If you think my den will make him ill, then perhaps you should stop bringing him here,” his words were clipped; dripped with the venom for which he was so well known. “Or perhaps you think me diseased. Is that it, Heatherstorm? Nasty medicine cat spends all his time alone or round the sick, so there must be something wrong with him, right?” The fur was beginning to rise along his spine now, making him look quite ridiculous – more like an apprentice than ever.
“Can’t leave the little hairball with the filthy healer, can we? He might be hurt – contaminated – is that what you think? Is it?” His body was practically quivering with rage by now, but he made no move to rise from the den floor; merely jerked beneath the force of each emphasised word he spat and glared at the she-cat as if he’d like to shred her – seemed to have forgotten that Palekit was there, and well and truly in the line of fire.
Ooc: I have no idea what this is, or where it came from, but apparently it’s time for Rabbitfur to go off on one. Hope you guys can work with it..
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Post by Dusty on Aug 21, 2013 19:45:56 GMT 1
For most kittens, the voice of their mother was the one they would hear first. It was the voice their ears would be trained for, would be particularly apt at picking out, even among others. Born of love, dependence and inateness, so was the way with Palekit. However not this time. So involved in his face-off with Rabbitfur was Palekit that the faint sounds of Heatherstorm calling for him could not be heard as she searched for him outside. True, from the den he would not have been able to make out her words, but the sound of her voice, now that was something he should have heard.
He should have heard it and got out.
Palekit knew his mother wasn't too fond of him spending a great deal of time in the medicine cats den. He imagined too that aside from all that she feared for him in this place, she must feel the pain of Redkit's passing in such a place. As the she-cat burst into the den, Palekit's eyes left Rabbitfurs for the first time in what had seemed like an age against such a glare as his. Guilt clouded his eyes as he saw his mother and heard her familiar cry, laced with concern. He should have told her where he was going. He knew that she rathered him to play in the open, but really there had been little to entice him to stay in the camp clearing. And if he was honest, avoiding her gaze, whilst not explicitly breaking her rules, was something that he did not mind. The young kit loved his mother as much as any could, but as obedient as he would try to be, he was young, and something like rebellion couldn't be avoided. This he shrugged off guiltlessly, thinking it a lesser offence given the number of ways in which he could have disobeyed his mother.
Palekit turned from Rabbit fur as his mother bounded over to him and nuzzled her chest briefly in affectionate greeting as she licked him. He rolled his eyes as she spoke, her concerned words racing out of her maw before he could get a word in, but an amused though loving smile played on his mouth. "I'm ok, I'm ok. I was just..." he purred up at his mother reassuringly, though she had no time to notice them as her thoughts and words barely skipped a beat before hitting their new mark. His sentence broke off as Heatherstorm turned her attentions to their location and Rabbitfur.
As Palekit's eyes followed his mother's gaze to the older tom, he surpressed a snicker partly at the medicine cat's having backed off but mostly at the distant expression that clouded his face. Heatherstorm's words raced on but it was apparent the tom wasn't hearing a word of it. He wondered whether his mother would notice, but given the state she was in...that he had put her in, he thought with some shame. It was unlikely she was observe that the tom wasn't listening. Or at least Palekit had assumed he hadn't been listening....
"I don’t want you getting sick from anything that is still in here..."
Palekit's eye's widened with shock at his mother having said the words infront of the tom, and at the hiss in her voice. To think them yes, to say them to other warriors, believable. But to this cranky old cat's face? Mom are you crazy?! He glanced up at his mother quickly, his expression one of surprise before looking apprehensively back to Rabbitfur. It was with something not too short of horror that Palekit saw Rabbitfur's snarling face and his fur fluffed as his growl rang around the den. Without thinking Palekit moved closer to his mother, instinctively seeking the warmth of her fur as comfort. His ears flattened against his head anxiously as Rabbitfur spoke and he realised how foolish he had been earlier. The tom was not one to be toyed with. Though Palekit assumed his mother would win any fight with him based purely upon fact of his injury, he was not one to make an enemy of. A medicine cat would do much better as a friend. And yet Palekit had spent the whole morning pushing Rabbitfur. He winced at the thought that he might have inflicted such venom upon himself.
However as the tom's words grew harsher, Palekit's fear took backseat and a defensive instinct took hold. He moved to place himself between Rabbitfur and his mother and arched his back, a poor reflection of the medicine cat's own pose and his eyes watch Rabbitfur carefully. He doubted Rabbitfur would do anymore than talk, and he had no idea what he would do if he did, but Palekit would be in the way of the medicine cat getting to his mother, whatever the case.
The kit had barely been listening to Rabbitfur's words, too full of fear of his venom to focus on their meaning. However now he snapped back.
“Can’t leave the little hairball with the filthy healer, can we?"
"Hey!" he cried, outrage filling him. "There's no need to be so mean about it!" He growled angrily, both at Rabbitfur's turn and also his description of him. Palekit liked Rabbitfur, for all his defences, and he didn't appreciate the tom calling him names like he wasn't there. Sure cats could joke around, but Rabbitfur was serious. Glaring into eyes full of hate, Palekit growled, the sound tarnished by his youth, as fear, anger and love jostled for prime position in his mind.
OoC:// Sorry, Palekit could have done more but I didn't want to jump the gun before Abby had replied to that torrent. q:
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Post by Abbydoodle on Aug 26, 2013 1:02:57 GMT 1
Having swiftly entered the medicine cat’s den roaring, the harried mother hardly had a chance to notice either cat responding to her, let alone that her kit was perfectly fine. While most kits would be embarrassed by the outburst she had had, verbally attacking both the medicine cat and her own kit, Heatherstorm was not. The situation had given her plenty of reason to over-react, if that’s what cats would call this. Heatherstorm sniffed, curling her tail around her son’s body. She protectively drew him even closer to herself, nuzzling him. In turn, Palekit nuzzled her chest affectionately, likely trying to make it up for her. The contact with her kit slowly steadied her beating heart, reassuring her of his safety. He was not sick; he was not hurt; he was just talking to the medicine cat. As she calmed she finally noted that her kit had also tried to assure her of his safety, and she purred back slightly in response to him. She hoped her outburst hadn’t freaked him out. She didn’t want him to stress himself out. That could cause him to become sick.
Heatherstorm’s gaze shifted from Palekit to the medicine cat, finally noticing that he seemed surprised from her outburst, but definitely not in regret of his actions. She seemed to have made him possibly a bit uncomfortable. But what she noticed the most was that he didn’t even seem to be listening to her. Did he, the medicine cat, who was supposed to be one of the most respected cats in Waterclan, just decide that she wasn’t important enough to listen to? If he wasn’t going to answer, then maybe she would just leave his den with her kit; she had said what she needed to, there was no reason for her to stay. But when Rabbitfur finally began to answer her cascade of words, she had no choice but to stay. Heatherstorm narrowed her eyes, her glare full of pure hatred. “I’m sorry, perhaps my words came out in a way they weren’t supposed to. Your den is where the healing takes place. However, you have to see it from a mother’s eyes. I don’t want my kits-I mean kit-to spend time in here anymore than he needs to. He’s just too young. He could get ideas about herbs, and then come back when you aren’t here any eat something that he thought was something else. Can’t you see why I would worry that accidents could happen?”Heatherstorm now felt as if she was trying to cover her back. She couldn’t make an enemy of Rabbitfur in case her kit became sick again. But, at the same time, she couldn’t just allow him to come in this den any time he wanted. Or spend time with a cat that could harm his impressionable mind.“I want my kit to spend time being a kit. He should play those kit-hood games that all kits play, albeit supervised, and have no responsibility.”Heatherstorm stopped and calmed her voice that had begun a steady rise in volume. She couldn’t get worked up again. But Rabbitfur was not making it easy on her.
“I am Palekit’s mother. Therefore, it is up to me to decide who I think is safe or not for him to talk to. You can speak with him all you want as long as it’s in the camp. I just don’t want him to be in here, where he might eat something while you are not watching.” She said, using a much calmer voice compared to Rabbitfur’s, which seemed to be laced with venom. Heatherstorm’s eyes opened wider in surprise as Rabbitfur basically spat his angry words at her. She immediately drew Palekit even closer to her, using her fluffy tail to try to cover his face from the look of rage and hatred on Rabbitfur’s. She was suddenly realizing it was bad to argue in front of Palekit-it could scar his young mind for his entire life. Heatherstorm ignored Palekit’s cry, although noting it in her mind that he was listening intently still, and hissed at Rabbitfur. “I don’t want to leave MY KIT with someone who doesn’t respect the fact that he is just that, a kit. I also don’t want you talking to him if you are going to call him something so vulgar. What on earth did he ever do to you?” She exclaimed, her voice dropping into a low, slow hiss, making sure every word would be heard. She could feel, even with herself wrapped around Palekit, the fur on her back standing on edge as she awaited Rabbitfur’s obvious rebuttal. Perhaps to save Palekit from getting any more scarred than this conversation already was she should just make him leave… OOC: Sorry from about half way on to the end it was very rushed, and I probably made her speak way too much...
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Post by Greymuzzles on Sept 24, 2013 22:14:58 GMT 1
Rage clouds the mind. It wraps coherent thought in thick, suffocating mists, preventing it from rising to the surface and censoring the words that pour from the mouth – the actions that pour from the limbs. It strips reason and control from every part of the host; drives them to say and do things they would never do on a clear mind, and pushing them to smash their own barriers, their own morals, their own limits. Consideration of the targets feelings or wellbeing, of the damage they might wreak, is lost within a thoughtless void: it is insignificant – helpless in the face of the venom, the desire for pain, that are the hallmarks of unconstrained vitriol.
So it was with Rabbitfur now.
For once he was not merely misinterpreting the signs that he saw, but failing to see them. They had no place in his world or his thoughts, no power to snap him back to sense or even smooth the edge off his temper. The only thing that mattered, that existed, was the fact that the cat before him – a cat who he had tolerated and indulged for moons – had dared to accuse him of carelessness, of endangering a kit, to his face. This was a wrong to outweigh all others, for it was not merely the covert mutterings of clanmates, or the disgust of a runt, or the suggestion that he was not as good as others. No, it was a strike at his morals and his profession. An assertion that he did not care at all – that he wasn’t safe. For all his grumbling and hissing and ranting, all his temper and suspicion and apparent insensitivity, all the frustrations and complaints and doubts of his clanmates, he had at least known of and been known for his care over the safety of those around him; had never before been accused of wilful negligence or endangerment. Yes, he had dragged a few claws over a foolish snout on occasion, and yes, he had often reduced cats of all ages to *tears with his venomous outbursts, but the wounds he left had always been superficial, and he had never so much as considered raising his claws against a kit – or even an apprentice.
And yet he was now to be accused of putting one of his charges in harms way? Of making a mistake even a newborn would not make?
Not even his own family had stooped to such lows.
“Do you think I’m stupid?” Now his taut, hissing voice was rising towards a shriek, bearing with it all the furry his undersized body could muster. With it came the return of movement; a straightening of body that unveiled his full frame; a flexing of limbs that might remind the she that he even he could do considerable damage if he put his mind to it. “You think I’d leave my herbs in a mousebrained kittens reach? That I’d let this clans mousebrained cats near my store?!
Tail lashing, the medicine cat took several jerky step forwards, barely seeming to notice Palekit’s expression or attempt to defend his mother. In fact, it was only when the kitten protested at his description of him – a description far kinder than many other he could have used – that he realised the little creature was lodged firmly in the line of fire, and rapidly turned his attention his way. Luckily for Palekit, the elderly tom’s wrath was not directed at him, but this didn’t spare him from any of the malice of the tom’s mood – merely saved him from harsher, more fixated attention than a snarled “keep your nose out, hairball. This doesn’t concern the likes of you.”
His grey eyes were back on Heatherstorm almost before the words had left his jaws, and he spared no more thought for the kit: didn’t even register the fact that he had just quoted one of his brothers word for word. However, he did notice when the she-cat dragged her son closer to her, as if trying to shield him – as if thinking he would actually set upon one so young. As if he were his father!
“Did you not think I had rules? Not wonder why kits only come when they have to – when I’m here?” Somehow his self-comparison to his long-dead kin had flicked another switch in Rabbitfur’s mind, forcing the rage to share its hold with other, equally potent emotions. For once the medicine cat’s tirade was one that bore immeasurable pain as well as anger, that opened a jagged window into all that he was hiding from his clan, and it seemed that he was utterly incapable of reigning it in. Couldn’t even see that the mask had slipped. He was as a leaf in a raging torrent; was utterly helpless to halt or screen the words tumbling from his lips, or to keep himself from stalking forwards until he was ‘nose-to-nose’ with his target, and virtually screaming in her face.
“Can no one see the care I take? Am I nothing but some foul, crippled runt to you? Or do you blame me for Redkit? Is that it? Do you think I’ll kill him too? Is that why you want him away from me? Is it?” He wasn’t going to give her the time to respond, couldn’t now let up, lest he find himself with time to think – to realise the line he had crossed. He had reached the point of no return, and now had no option but to press on and on and on until the words were out and the rage was well and truly spent. Could do nothing but face the consequences head on, and be done with it. “Am I to be a shadow? Am I so foul, so, so hateful that you cannot bear to have your precious brood around me, lest I ruin him – lest he be tainted by my mere presence?
Am I to lose my only company at the whim of a she who can’t keep her own sons safe!?”
At last Rabbitfur was silenced, his tirade forced to break by heaving breaths and hacking coughs – the hefty consequences of allowing such throat-rending shrieks to claim his final thoughtless words.
Ooc: …I have no idea where this came from, or how well it reads (I like some bits, but not others, and I’ve never been good at writing rants :/) but hopefully you guys can find some way to work with it. Aaand…maybe we can fix him again? I think he’s cracked a bit here XP *I know cats can’t cry, but I couldn’t think of a better way to put it XP
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Post by Dusty on Oct 21, 2013 19:35:29 GMT 1
Palekit watched the whole affair with horrified wide eyes. His fur fluffed slightly, driven by the fear that filled his mind. Not for himself of course, but for the two adult cats. Palekit had seen enough adolescent Warriors to know that adults were prone to fighting, and just because Rabbitfur happened to be older than any feline that would usually get into such scraps, Palekit held no doubt that if pushed, he would give it a shot. Aside from his earlier outburst, he had little courage to interrupt, instead just desperately hoping that one of them would stop. They are grown-ups after all…He thought to himself.
He snuffled as his mother’s tail wrapped around his face, the furs tickling his nostrils and forcing him to close his eyes. He knew his mother would be worrying about his watching this dispute; it was in her nature to worry about him, he was only young after all. But he couldn’t help but wish she would do so without smothering him. He cringed as he listened to her response to his exclamation and realised he hadn’t helped. He had expected to be more or less ignored, but not for Heatherstorm to pick up on Rabbitfur’s name calling and take it further into the argument. It took some amount of effort, but Palekit reached up and pulled down his mother’s tail as gently as he could, attempting to position it between his front legs so that he would not find himself covered in it once more when she noticed he could still watch. Not that it stops me hearing you guys anyways….
The kit almost regretted his actions as soon as he could once more see Rabbitfur. The old tom’s face was a mixture of anger and something that looked to the kit like pain, and Palekit wondered if he was so hurt by his mother’s words, or if moving had hurt him so. He felt himself instinctively huddle lower as he gazed upwards. Rabbitfur had come so close, the kit was now squeezed between the two adults, and from his position the snarling faces, even the softer one of his mother’s, were quite terrifying. He swallowed hard as he looked upon the drama he had caused, momentarily losing all track of the argument.
One word however, pricked Palekit’s ears and he felt a stab at his heart, his eyes twisting round to see his mother’s face, though he felt he could not look. Redkit… The old tom’s words would no doubt affect his mother and Palekit’s gaze barely lasted a second, he could not bare it. Could he really have brought that up? Why wouldn’t he have…That’s the problem after all, said a voice in Palekit’s mind, and he knew it to be true. His mother would always worry about him as he was all that remained. He often wondered how different things would be if Redkit had survived. His parents would worry less, he supposed. And he would have more company…He wouldn’t have started this problem that was for sure.
Palekit felt the need to protect his mother. To speak up, shout out and stop Rabbitfur. But the medicine cat gave him no chance. His tirade bore on and it was all the kit could do to keep up with his words. At a loss he half-consciously moved closer to his mother’s leg, placing a paw on hers and resting the warmth of his fur against her, hoping it would be of some comfort.
It was only towards the end of his rant that Palekit felt anything but anger for Rabbitfur. He knew this was his own fault; his mother had attacked the tom for no reason but Palekit’s presence here. But Rabbitfur had gone too far. But as the old tom slowed, he felt a confusion in his heart. The end of the rant was…not as he had expected. It was only then that Palekit realised that it had not been the moving that had caused the pain on Rabbitfur’s face, but his mother’s words. Perhaps he was not the only one who had crossed a line, though Palekit was not sure what it had been exactly. He looked at Rabbitfur now, silent bar his fearful coughing. He no longer looked terrifying. He looked…He looked vulnerable. He tentatively stepped forward from his hiding place between his mother’s paws and cocked his head to one side. “Company?” he repeated softly, his voice quizzical as his round eyes gazed up at the tom. Rabbitfur had asked if he was to lose his only company. Does that mean...he does like me? He thought to himself, hopeful. Despite all the time Palekit had spent bothering the old tom, he had never thought of himself as much more than an annoyance. He still wasn’t quite sure he had heard the tom right, or perhaps he had misunderstood amidst the shouting. But he couldn’t help but hope.
Little that it mattered though, as he would likely be banned from the den by at least one if not both of these adults by the time the day was through.
He gave a slight sigh, lost in thought and largely ignoring the scene still on-going, reached out across the short distance still left between himself and the medicine cat and affectionately rubbed his head against the small tom’s upper leg, his movements almost, but not quite, hiding the apprehension they were made with.
OoC:// Sorry you guys had to wait so long. I hope this is okay. I didn't want to write anything that cut Abby from responding however she likes so it was a bit tricky.
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Post by Abbydoodle on Nov 10, 2013 21:04:43 GMT 1
The motherly fear and rage that tainted Heatherstorm’s thoughts finally began to dissipate as the scene unfolded. Instead, her rage was replaced by feelings of hurt. Maybe she was overreacting and shouldn’t worry so much. He was the medicine cat after all-Starclan trusted him completely, so shouldn’t she?
But she was a good mom. She had every right to worry about her son-her only son. If she didn’t worry about him, then who would?
Rabbitfur just absolutely felt the need to attack her parenting.
How was she supposed to keep her son safe if she wasn’t constantly worrying about him? She was quite right in worrying about Palekit accidentally ingesting something dangerous! He was a kit; kits can be naïve and dumb-they are uneducated about dangers. She felt responsible for her kit’s safety, and didn’t think Rabbitfur, being old and quite cranky, needed to worry too.
Heatherstorm finally sighed and began to apologize-or at least attempt to. After all, she didn’t want to keep scaring-or scarring-her kit who was witness to all of this. It would have been much smarter to talk to Rabbitfur alone instead of dragging Palekit into this mess; it wasn’t his fault, he was just a kit.
“I don’t think you’re stupid, Rabbitfur. Of course you wouldn’t purposefully leave anything in his reach, nor do anything mouse-brained like that. But accidents can happen.” Heatherstorm paused for a second, just to catch her breath if anything. This ordeal had suddenly left her feeling incredibly drained of energy. The rage that swirled through her had seemed to latch onto her energy, and the adrenaline rushing through her veins had been the only thing keeping her going until now.
“If Starclan trusts you, then I suppose I should too. You are a healer and would not purposefully hurt anyone. But you have to understand the panic that courses through my veins. When I only have one kit, how can I not worry?”
Heatherstorm huffed once more, finally finishing her tirade. She finally noticed that Palekit had pushed her tail off of his face so that he could see once more, and was glad she had calmed her voice and no longer would scare him with her words or face. He had enough scary memories from this encounter.
Trying to keep her calm, Heatherstorm had to grit her teeth to keep from lashing out again as Rabbitfur continued to call Palekit names. He was trying her patience, but she needed to be a little bit calmer for Palekit’s sake. She spoke through her clenched teeth to keep her voice even remotely calm.
“Please, if you want to talk to him at all, do not ever call him names. HE’S A KIT. He did absolutely nothing to you to warrant anger or meanness.”
Heatherstorm listened to Rabbitfur, having to try her hardest not to block out his words as she calmed her mind again. The rage once again was clouding her thoughts and tainting her view on his words. She needed to keep her calm, but it didn’t appear as if that was going to work much longer. Maybe she and Palekit just needed to leave.
Finally, her thoughts burst out as Rabbitfur stalked forward to yell in her face. He was literally spitting rage directly into her face, with Palekit right below them! Heatherstorm dragged Palekit a tiny bit closer to her-if that was even possible-and attempted to push him between her legs to shield him even more. before she began her own tirade, with her emerald eyes matching his grey.
“Of course I know you have rules, I’m not a mouse-brain. But you’re not a parent. You might not realize how notorious kits are for getting into trouble and breaking rules. They are curious and naïve-a quality that leads to problems.”
Heatherstorm couldn’t let up now. Not when he insulted her, her parenting, and any insecurities or fleeting fears and thoughts she had ever had. He took every tiny thought out of her head and used it against her, breaking her spirit as well as what seemed his own. Her mothering instinct almost wanted to take over to comfort this elderly cat that seemed to be breaking in front of her. Almost. Instead it churned the rage inside of her and sparked more of her motherly protection, making it bore right out of her as she puffed her chest and stood, pushing her head above him.
“How do you think I could possibly blame anyone for Redkit’s death but myself? He was my kit. Mine. If anyone should have known anything was wrong with him, it should have been me. I… I…It’s…. It’s not you, but ANYONE that could even possibly harm Palekit . I cannot possibly lose another kit, don’t you see? I have to protect him.” She couldn’t stop herself as the emotion filled her voice and rolled over her words as she cried out with all of her pent up feelings. She was powerless to stop the words that spewed from her mouth with little thought to the consequences they would bring, nor the feelings she could hurt. She had to protect her family first and for most before giving any more thoughts to Rabbitfur.
“I am sorry if I hurt your feelings, but I am not going to play on your insecurities any longer. I am going to worry about my son every single time he is out of my sight, and eventually I will have to learn to deal with it. But for now, I am allowed to worry and allowed to want him within my sights. I cannot be responsible for the death of another of my sons, so I alone have to keep watch of him. If something was to happen to him if anyone but myself were keeping watch of him, I would never be able to forgive myself.”
Heatherstorm stopped to take a breath, using her last bits of energy to fuel her words. It was then that she took in Rabbitfur’s final words. Even he believed she couldn’t keep her kits safe. If he thought that, what was keeping every cat from believing her to be an incapable mother-of thinking that it was her fault her son had died? Was not only she, but everyone blaming her for Redkit’s death? It only meant she had so much more to lose if Palekit were to be harmed. She alone had to protect him.
Right before she answered her ears caught a little voice from beneath her. The hopeful-not fearful-chime in his voice gave her hope that perhaps he wasn’t as afraid as she suspected. At the same time, it broke her heart to her that hopeful aspect. He wanted to talk to Rabbitfur; she didn’t think she had the will to stop him if that was what he wanted, even if she was his mother. She also noticed him rub his tiny face against the medicine cat-a motion so full of care that it broke her heart. However, it still didn’t change her response to Rabbitfur. Now her voice just came out much more shaky and much more hurt and sad than angry. She couldn’t keep up the rage.
“I….I realize people may blame me for Redkit’s death, and I am perfectly willing to take the blame. The only thing I can do to help that is by protecting my remaining kit. If that means taking away your company, then I am sorry. But please, if you wish to talk to him, then just do so out in the camp so I can see you. The only way I can protect him is by watching him, okay? I know you may not entirely understand this, but the only way to keep my kits-kit-safe is to be his protector….
If you have to take him in here EVER, just ask me. I…It…might be okay if only for a heartbeat…”
Heatherstorm deflated, curling slightly on the floor of the den, all energy from her previous rage gone. She was just hurt and sad, wishing to end this angry episode with at least some dignity.
(OOC: Hm... Good luck with this..)
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Post by Greymuzzles on Nov 23, 2013 18:47:31 GMT 1
As far as Rabbitfur was concerned, the coughing fit could not have been more poorly placed. Though his shortened breath and hacking coughs pressed him into silence before he could say anything even worse than he already had, they also highlighted something of his developing infirmity to a world that wasn’t meant to see it. His body shook beneath the force of the sounds, instantly robbing him of any power he might have seemed to hold – turning him into nothing more than one more elderly, bad tempered cat who was virtually past their time, and knew it. This was a not now a figure to inspire confidence or apprehension, not one to respect for their skills and their role, but rather one to pity and doubt: to meet with scorn and question at every turn.
Waterclan could be forgiven for seeming to want him replaced.
Could not be blamed for wanting an apprentice in his paws, even as they held to the impossibility of such an event.
In his heart Rabbitfur knew and hated this, but at that time, in that place, these things palled in comparison to one other point. The last few moments were catching up to him. His mind and conscience were taking his silence as their opportunity to make him see what had been said, and not even fury could hold back the horror that came in realisations wake. Though he loathed every word that had triggered his tirade and seethed at the suggestions held therein, he knew he could not condone his reference to Redkit. Knew that a line had been crossed, and that there was no taking it back.
Worse, he had not meant it.
The words had spilled from him out of anger alone; had been snatched and used purely to make her feel some semblance of the hurt he felt. The suggestion that the kits loss was Heatherstorms fault had been nothing but a slash where he knew it would hurt most—if anyone was to blame for Redkit, it truly was him—and he could tell, even without looking, that it had done its job well. Too well.
He had not meant it.
But he had said it, and that was enough.
Knowing this, and remembering anew just how damaging mere words could be, Rabbitfur made no effort to rise to the she’s furious response. Though his coughing had finally subsided, and he was capable of speech once more, he chose to hold himself to silence and let her speak just as freely as he had not seconds before. Resigned himself to accepting the consequences – the rage and the blows he had earned – without complaint or fuss, for he knew he could do nothing else.
To his surprise, she didn’t lash out at him. He had braced himself for the weight of a full-sized paw and the sting of unsheathed claws, but Heatherstorm merely drew herself up and restrained herself to rapid-fire words. She merely ranted, revealing how painful a nerve he had struck with his spiteful snarl, and how close she was to an edge that it might not be possible to save her from. In a few heartbeats she managed to compound his guilt and quell his anger, stripping his emotions back to simple pain—pain at his hurt and hers tangled into a single inseparable ball—and robbing him of the strength that had Boyed him not moments before.
Then she paused and breathed; flitted from wrath to startle to something else – something he did not know or understand.
Something connected to the tiny voice that had wriggled into the conflict.
To the sudden pressure against his foreleg.
Rabbitfur immediately glanced down, utterly failing to hide or prevent his startled retreat from the touch. This, like so many other parts of the day, was something with which he was not familiar, for it had been many seasons since he’d sought or received such contact from his clanmates. It was also something that he was briefly unable to interpret, and he couldn’t help but scowl at the kit in response – until he registered the purposefully gentle edge that laced the gesture. Until instinctual knowledge reminded him that this was good and welcome, not something to fear or avoid.
His eyes softened the moment this thread of understanding reached him, but it was a fleeting change. Heatherstorm was not yet done with him, and it wasn’t long before his gaze was upon her again; wasn’t long before that harder edge was back within his features, informing one and all that these newest words had been taken no better than their predecessors.
Fortunately, he refrained from launching into yet one more tirade. Instead, he simply glowered at the she-cat as she sank to the floor of his den; lashed his tail at her assertions and the situation.
“If you think that I am dangerous, that my names are ‘mean’, that I don’t know how frequently kits get into trouble, then you are more Naïve than I thought,” He growled, watching her with obvious displeasure. But it seemed that something between his coughs and the return of his voice had had a somewhat positive effect, for his growl no longer held the venom it had imparted before. It was, instead, a faintly tauter version of the growling tones that were his norm: seemed almost to be making some stab at consideration; taking some notice of Palekit’s lingering presence.
“I am the one who deals with the aftermath of that trouble. If any in this clan know the consequences of kit stupidity, it’s me.” He turned from her then, his gaze briefly flickering towards Palekit, then darting away as if frightened to see how he might react to these newest words – to his ‘refusal’ of the kits affectionate display. “However, since you clearly think me the greatest threat to your precious kitten, I’ll bow to your demands. I’ll stay away.”
With that, the undersized tom stalked to the back of his den, evidently intent upon ignoring them…and concealing his own hurt from their view.
Ooc:...Not sure if this is better or worse than the ranting. Dusty, I thiiink it's up to Palekit to save the day?
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Post by Dusty on Dec 8, 2013 18:02:55 GMT 1
OoC:// I don't know how he can save this but let's see...xP
BIC://
Palekit was unsure if his gesture had had the right effect or not. Of course it hadn't really had an intended effect...He had just felt a pull to do it. Rabbitfur's start away from his touch was expected. Had the old tom not moved from it Palekit would have known something was very wrong. The absence of any form of reciprocation of even retaliation was probably as good a reaction as the kit could have expected. Rabbitfur was not one to show any pleasure at affection from another, as far as the kit had observed. Likewise however, the fact that he had not pushed the younger cat away showed that he could not have objected too strongly. Or at least, was too startled to. The difference was slight in Palekit's mind.
His mother's reaction was less pleasant for him to observe. It seemed to have quelled her anger, but only to replace it with greater hurt. Her words apalled him, his tiny heart weighed down by the guilt of having put her into this position; breaking as she blamed herself for his brother's death. There was not a cat in the clan that would blame the mother for a death like Redkit's; one to which no cause could be put. Palekit struggled to even see how anyone could blame the medicine cat for it, though he admitted to himself this was a more plausible scapegoat. The kit was young, but was old enough to understand, if not fully feel, his mother's pain. Moving away from Rabbitfur again he huddled up next to his mother, pressing himself into her chest, though still facing outwards, unable to take his gaze from the ridiculous argument occuring before him.
Rabbitfur too appeared calmer, though Palekit could still hear the edge to his voice. These two! Such stubborness. Did they even realise, he wondered, that they were fighting over nothing? Palekits fear had subsided by now, and having seen both cats were calming, he felt more confident in the situation, though dared not to speak. Tact was needed here and he would need to prepare his words carefully before launching into anything that might set them off again. As such Rabbitfur's words on kit stupidity went largely ignored. Palekit knew they were true anyway, even if he did not believe himself to be a perputrator of such things personally. Rabbitfur's glance did not go unnoticed, however. It was a sign that the old tom did care, and the kit registered that with internal glee.
The final words of each cat pained him though. His mother's request that he no longer came into the den revoked the need for Rabbitfur to need to say he would stay away. Palekit knew well enough that the old tom would be more than able to avoid him in the camp if he wanted to. And had he not wanted to before, now he certainly would! For the young tom, who's desire to know all there was too know was ever growing, this was a disasterous outcome. Palekit jumped up as Rabbitfur began stalking to the back of the den, springing into the new space between the two.
"Hey, no!" He cried, the apparent injustice beaming in his eyes. He looked between the two desperately, thoughts of tact hammering for his attention but bourne back by the panicked idea of his mother picking him up and dragging him out without another word.
"But you can't...you can't ban me from the den, what if I need something?!" he mewed, his voice a stricken whine. "Mom Rabbitfur is the only one who knows about some things!" He whined, his eyes looking into his mothers pleadingly. "I need him to tell me stuff!"
He looked round to the old tom stepping once towards him as if shortening the distance slightly would help. "I know it's not dangerous, I can look after myself!" He looked back to his mother. "Trust me!"
He shrunk for a moment then padded in a soft but rapid movement back to his mother. "I know you did all you could for Redkit, mother," he mewed softly, nuzzling into her neck. "I know you're looking after me too. Rabbitfur didn't mean what he said about him. Did you?" He finished, pulling his muzzle out from his mothers fur and turning to the old tom, his eyes both pleading and scolding.
OoC:// I don't know if that helped...
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Post by Abbydoodle on Jan 19, 2014 19:16:14 GMT 1
Heatherstorm continued to lash her tail back and forth, breathing slightly erratically as she attempted to calm herself after her tirade. Her eyes narrowed, she took in the remaining situation around her. She was physically and mentally exhausted. How had this pleasant day turned into a disaster after just mere moments in this den?
Rabbitfur, looking worse for wear after his coughing fit and their fight, did not look nearly as menacing as before. He looked… old. For the first time in all of her moons Heatherstorm finally realized that Rabbitfur was a very elderly cat. Definitely one of the oldest in Waterclan. More so than that, he did not have an apprentice yet. Is that why he was allowing Palekit to get so close to him? So that Palekit could be a medicine cat apprentice?
The thought shook Heatherstorm’s mind. She had never even thought of Palekit as anything but a little warrior-if he survived into adulthood. In her dreams, Redkit and Palekit had been her two little warriors, always to fight side by side in battles together. None of her hopes could come true now. Heatherstorm’s eyes flitted from the elderly medicine cat to her son, who had rubbed his head against the medicine cat’s leg. Her sharp eyes softened at this. In all of her anger, she never exactly paid any attention to how her son would react to this. She may be his mother, but she wasn’t ignorant to his wishes. The care she could see in his eyes was eminent.
Her stance was being chipped away, and the she-cat was beginning to suspect that she couldn’t possibly hold the ability to keep her son away from this den if it was what he wanted.
Rabbitfur’s word suddenly filled the air, and brought a chill to her spine.
“How could and elderly tom such as you be dangerous? It’s any of the possibilities of this den, and any possible accidents that come with it.” She huffed, not yet ready to relent on her beliefs of Palekit being safer within her sights. Was it not in a queen’s definition to constantly worry about her kits?
“And your names can damage Palekit’s confidence. Do you ever remember what it’s like to be a kit, who doesn’t know if he will succeed or not? It’s a delicate time, but maybe you are too old to remember the feeling.” It was a low blow, even for Heatherstorm. But she couldn’t just sit and take this old tom calling her naïve. She wasn’t naïve. For Starclan’s sake, her son had died.
Heatherstorm sighed deeply. Why did it feel like she was putting herself into a cycle of destruction? She didn’t want to become petty, resorting to name calling to prove a point.
The queen continued to listen as the tom spoke-briefly-responding to her rant. What had taken him moments to tell had seemed to take her an eternity. Heatherstorm guiltily dropped her head as she realized the tom seemed to look almost defeated as he talked. They were both defeated. Their arguments were seemingly pointless. She blamed him for a death he couldn’t even possibly prevent, and the same goes for her. But she was his mother. She was supposed to know everything about him, be able to tell when he was sick.
How.
Could.
He.
Die.
Palekit’s soft voice interrupted her thoughts as she felt him push himself against her chest. Reached down and licked his head a few times, trying to sooth him-as well as herself. “Honey, I’m sure many cats know about…things. If you need something come to me. And I do trust you, Palekit.”
She felt like a phony, even to her own ears.
Movement in the den forced Heatherstorm to glance up and watch as Rabbitfur walked to the back of his den, as if he was running away from the conflict…Or their reactions.
The queen felt the fur on her shackles raise slightly, a low, barely audible growl resonating from her throat. He couldn’t just run away from an argument with nothing decided.
The she-cat was preparing to follow Rabbitfur when Palekit’s calm voice came again. Immediately, the mother’s fur lowered as she dropped her head, the growl stopping. Her eyes filled as she looked down at Palekit, as innocent as could be, yet wrapped in entrapped by their argument. She couldn’t possibly call Rabbitfur mean, and herself a good mother, if she constantly yelled and argued in front of her kit, who she herself had professed to be incredibly impressionable.
Heatherstorm returned the cuddle and rubbed her face against Palekit, licking his head affectionately a few times. She couldn’t find the words in her to thank him without breaking down.
“No, of course I didn’t mean it sweetie. It wasn’t my fault, Rabbitfur’s fault, your fault, anyone’s. Your brother was very sick, even if we didn’t know it, It was j-“ Heatherstorm stopped as her voice broke. She let out a small gasp as she tried to compose herself to continued, her voice strained with emotion. ”Sometimes Starclan has a better purpose for a cat. Your brother. He was special. That’s why Starclan needed him. It wasn’t anyone’s fault at all, and it couldn’t be helped. And now, he isn’t in any pain. He can be peaceful in Starclan.”
Heatherstorm clenched her jaw tight, attempting to maintain any dignity she had left and to hold back the rest of her emotions. She looked down at her pleading son’s eyes and gulped.
“If - and only if - you ask me first, I suppose you may visit Rabbitfur.”
Mother or not, Heatherstorm wanted to see her kit happy.
(OOC: Sorry for any late-ness and the attempts at fixing the situation. But I hope this can be worked with.)
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Post by Greymuzzles on Apr 17, 2014 17:23:59 GMT 1
‘How could an elderly tom such as you be dangerous?’
The words were doubtless meant to be pacifying; a clumsy attempt to destroy the notion that she might consider him a threat to her kit. Unfortunately they also happened to hit a nerve, instantly stilling the undersized tom’s steps and peeling his lips back from his gums. Though he did not wish to be considered a danger to any in his clan, he also didn’t much like his age being pointed out in any context – couldn’t help but twist the words until they were yet another an accusation of weakness, an assumption that he couldn’t put up a fight even if he wanted to, rather than the ‘reassurance’ they were meant to be. Naturally, this did nothing to improve his already sour mood, nor to encourage him to hear the she-cat through.
But hear her he would. Heatherstorm still wasn’t giving him much of a chance to interject, instead ploughing on with yet another of her objections. And whilst these words also held a gleaming gem of truth, should have given him pause, made him think, they too could do little more than stoke the rebuilding flames of his temper. It was the second reference to his age that did it. The suggestion that he was so ancient his memory had begun to fail; that he could possibly have forgotten what it was like to be a kitten. That the she-cat or little hairball at the centre of this drama could have any comprehension of what true insults were all about.
It was enough to make him bristle and drag a hiss from his jaws; enough to make him twist and lock flashing, too-cold eyes upon the younger forms.
“Too old?” He snarled, his voice rasping beneath the lingering touches of his coughing fit. “Too old? I’ll not forget those days till Starclan claims me, She-cat! You think my names will hurt him?” A flick of the head; a brief stare at the kitten that had drawn this she into his den, “One name, from one cat? From me? Hah! He can run to anycat in this clan and they’ll put him right in seconds.” He lashed his tail, twisting away even as the quotes—words that he had not been meant to hear, that his clan doubtless thought him oblivious to—dripped from his lips. “Don’t listen to that mousebrain; he doesn’t know what he’s talking about. That furball - he doesn’t like anyone. Just the nonsense of a fox-hearted fool…”
“*You’ve said a few yourself, Heatherstorm. And yet you have the gall to ask if I remember how I felt as a kit? If I know the power of words? He snorted, finally shaking away his immobility in favour of slinking further into his den, and coiling himself against its back wall. “Not like this clan has ever given me the chance to forget.”
And then there was silence. Brief, crackling silence—
An indignant, desperate voice.
The struggling, wavering words of a Queen who clearly didn’t know how to handle the situation. Didn’t know how to deny the plead within her only sons calls.
Rabbitfur, himself still stinging from her words and his guilt and the memories, neither interrupted nor attempted to stir himself from the depths of his own tangled mood. Instead he merely remained silent, confining himself to the tight curl of his own body and keeping his eyes locked upon the neat rows of herbs that lined this portion of his den. The messages within his features and his posture was simple and obvious: he was done, would not be dragged into conversation again—
Until those pleading words were turned on him.
Although he had had no intentions of responding, he couldn’t quite help but let his eyes flash down towards Palekit when those final words broke the air. The glance was fleeting, but it was also his undoing: more than enough to claw at some hidden part of him and force out speech where no speech was meant to exist.
“…The health of the clan is the Medicine Cats responsibility.” It was another quote, but one of a very different nature to those that had come before. Where they had been bitter, venomous, this was quiet and defeated: an almost automatic return to certain lessons he had learnt in those brief moons when things had been good. They were the words of Hawkfeather, and they were uttered with both resignation and conviction, for he had lived more than long enough to discover the meaning and truth that lay within all of his second mentor’s teachings. Long enough, too, to come to believe them as fervently as his predecessor had done, and to understand that there was only one cat to blame when the Medicine Cats craft failed to save a Waterclanners life.
“I only blame myself.”
Ooc: *I’m assuming she might have made some comment somewhere along the lines, if only because he’s all short temper and blunt words. Doesn’t exactly make for much of a bedside manner, you know?
Reaaally sorry about how late this is. I’ve only just managed to rediscover the wayward muse in the wake of those ruddy deadlines XP
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Post by Dusty on Apr 26, 2014 19:11:57 GMT 1
Palekit's mind lingered over Rabbitfur's retorts as he spoke of past words and the harm caused. His mother was wrong. Young and impressionable as he certainly was, even he understood that a grumpy old cat like this one meant no real hamr with such name calling. He'd have been more surprised hat the tom refered to him plesantly, truth be told. Of course his mother's logic was sound, despite this. Had the names come from one such as his future mentor, the leadder or even herself, they may have followed the young kit around for some time, questioning himself. But they hadn't. In the heat of the moment, and from the aging tiom cat, Palekit resented the names, but did not care further than that. He rolled his eyes at the fact that it was a matter for debate between the two adults however. It saddened him to think that a nerve had been touched for Rabbitfur, but at this point in time his mind was far from worrying about it. To continue with the subject would only make matters worse and Palekit did not want that. Nor did he want to anger Rabbitfur by suggesting that he had seen weakness in him.
Ultimately, Palekit just wanted this all to end.
The arguing had gone on for so long that the young tom could barely recall the reason he ventured into the den, besides that it had been to ask a question of the medicine cat. Now that question was long gone from his mind. Fortunately for him, he expected it was not important. He was at least certain it had not been as urgent as it had felt at the time.
His mother was wrong though. Yes the rest of the clan were knowledgable. But there was a reason there was a medicine cat. Rabbitfur was the font of all knowledge regarding a cats health and healing herbs. There was simply no one else in the clan to replace him as a source of information, other than a few elders perhaps. Not only was he specialized in the area, but having not taken on an apprentice despite his age and duration in residence in this den, and with his bad temper, others had not been able to even pick up snippets of advice from the tom without having to directly find out from him, something he expected many only did when necessary.
Palekit shook his head at his mother. "They don't mum," he said, his voice no argumentative, but somewhat resigned. "No one knows as much as him." But he nuzzled her chest all the same as she spoke of her trust in him; a sign of gratitudde for this condolence prize.
He smiled at the she-cat's affectionate lick, his head pulling his body upwards as he raised it towards her, his little front paws almost lifting from the ground. But as he pulled back to look properly at her as she spoke, he felt regret. Her straining voice and pained face were impossible to unsee and he felt as though he were watching her heart breaking once more. He could only thank Starclan he had been too young to understand or acknowledge her pain upon the kit's actual death, as even this resurgence was unbearable for him. He mewed in agreement and nuzzled into her chest once more. 'I'm still here', the motion said.
Rabbitfur's response to his question was equally heartwrenching and ironically the kit would have wished himself out of the den there and then had he been able to. Emotions riled up from the fighting, the grief of the adults was stronger than Palekit had ever expected when he had spoken of Redkit.
Palekit shook his head. "No Rabbitfur. It wasn't your fault," he mewed softly, unsure of whether he was making a terrible move or not anymore. He crossed the distance between the two cats, paused for a moment, more hesitant than before, before nuzzling the top of his head into Rabbitfur's chest in a manner he hoped would comfort the tom. He believed it may have any other. "Starclan can't be held back," he murmured, unaware if to the tom of himself, his words echoing his mother's ideas on Redkit's leaving them.
He stepped back a few spaces, pulling away from the tom and hovered between the two of them as he mother finally relented. He smiled up at her grateful expression worn with apologetic eyes. "Thank you mother, I promise I will always ask," he replied, his voiced edge with a soft but hesitant purr. "That is unless I am told to stay away.." he added, feeling that perhaps, no matter what his mother said, he may still be banished from the elder tom's presence.
OoC:: Hope that's okay guys, gosh it's been so long so it's pretty rough -_- Abby I loved what you wrote about Starclan needing Redkit, was so lovely <3
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Post by Abbydoodle on Jun 15, 2014 17:32:12 GMT 1
Heatherstorm huffed loudly, repressing the need to roll her eyes at the belligerent tom. “Kits are young and impressionable. If any cat, whether a warrior, apprentice, or the leader, called him a name, it would hurt. No respectable cat would berate a kit, especially one that knows little of the clan’s ways yet. It’s just not right to-“Heatherstorm trailed her thoughts. Even she knew her ramblings were idiotic. Of course kits would get yelled at if they were being a nuisance or getting into trouble.
She was on the edge of taking back her statements when Rabbitfur continued on. Apparently there was much more to the tom than just a bitter, cold personality, and she had just managed to hit a soft spot. She awkwardly moved, somewhat slumping her body as she sat. She never had the intention of breaking this cat…But she couldn’t just sit back and listen as another belittled her.
Pointing her ears back, Heatherstorm worked to withhold a snarl. “Well I’m sorry for any time I spoke rudely to you. Do you need babied as well as a kit does? I just wouldn’t take the names personally. If you step out of your den, for just a heartbeat, you would hear warriors calling each other names. We playfully call each other names, not just out of spite. “
The queen stopped to catch her breath, and looked away from the tom to stare at the ceiling of his den. She had wanted to calm this situation, not escalate it. Perhaps it was just time for her to leave the den. She obviously wasn’t helping the situation any longer.
But the Queen remained in the den. She watched in horror as the medicine cat seemed to nearly fall apart in front of her. He coiled against the back wall, staying silent, seemingly lost in his thoughts and memories. He seemed finished-defeated-about as finished with this conversation as she was. She searched for his eyes, hoping to tell what he was thinking, but he was focused on some other far off place in his den.
However, as much as Heatherstorm wanted to end this argument, it seemed that every time they were about to end it one of them said something that started it again. She sighed, realizing the only way to end the dispute would likely be to apologize, or finally end it in some way.
“You know, I think we’ve both said a few things that we didn’t mean, or that just shouldn’t have been said. And I’m sorry for anything out of line I may have said now or before. But I don’t apologize for sticking up for my kit. Being a queen can make some cats, including me, a bit-well-crazy. And I’m protective. I know that. I just want what’s best for Palekit, you have to understand. But I hope that somehow we can forgive and forget this, especially if Palekit is going to be spending time with you,” she finally relented, turning her head to stare at the ground. She felt a futile wish for this entire experience to have a dream coming on, and sighed in frustration at what this conversation had become. Nothing seemed to be simple any longer.
Heatherstorm looked up when she felt her son rub against her chest, and let out a small, nearly automatic purr. “I guess he is a pretty smart cat, Palekit,” she said soothingly. “But other cats can tell you other “stuff” too if you try,” she said, licking his head again.
The Queen’s attention was brought back to Rabbitfur as he spoke again. She lowered her head, unable to take the look in his eyes as he declared it his fault that Redkit died. Of course it was the clan’s natural reaction to at first blame the medicine cat; but eventually all would realize it was his destiny to join Starclan, and no cat could possibly have saved him.
She opened her mouth only to shut it once more when her son answered for her. ‘Starclan can’t be held back.’ A simple reiteration of her own words brought a strong reaction in the she-cat. Not only had her son understood her, and accepted it, but he was trying to comfort another with the same concept. She purred, quietly, feeling her stress release.
“Palekit’s right, Rabbitfur. No cat could have stopped Redkit’s destiny. I couldn’t, you couldn’t, nobody could. I realize now what a waste it is to dwell over the past-over what could not be helped. It’s wasting our lives. Redkit would have wanted us to live our lives, and not feel constant guilt over his death. “
Heatherstorm finally stopped as she watched her son nuzzle his head into Rabbitfur as well. Her eyes connected with Palekit’s as he stepped back, and she gave him a reassuring purr. “I…I could never keep you from something that you truly desired, even if I am your mother. I won’t tell you to stay away as long as Rabbitfur wants your presence as well.”
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Post by Greymuzzles on Jul 12, 2014 23:28:40 GMT 1
“Respectable, he growled; a low, tight repetition directed more at himself than at anycat else. It was accompanied by a fresh snap to his gaze, but this was a harshness that lacked much of its earlier ice: had already been whittled down by the sharp verbal claws of their argument, and the incautious question that had finally forced an unwanted, but long known, truth from his jaws. “That word has never applied to me.” now he really was speaking to himself, and the softness of his growl was a testament to that – ensured that none but he was likely to catch the full content of the phrase, and that that particular jibe passed by with relatively little fight attached.
Then Heatherstorm spoke again, and the tom stirred; found a new and soundless snarl rising up to claim its predecessors place. His response to this comment was far sharper than the last, leaving no doubt that he was addressing his company yet again – and that the bitterness for which he was so well known had by no means lost its grasp upon him. In truth, it probably never would, for there were some things that were hard to let go of…particularly if one had never really learnt how to read anything but negatives from those that addressed them. “There is nothing playful in the names directed at me, she-cat, but I’ve no need nor desire for your babying. I was merely making a point – and even were I not…”
He paused; blinked; snorted. Prevented the kittish ‘I’d only want your care if it was real’ from escaping his jaws.
He’d already highlighted his weakness more than enough; wasn’t about to underline it all the more.
It was this that finally drove him back into the grasps of waiting silence, leaving him with nothing more to do but watch and listen and scowl; hold himself to his stillness whilst he waited for the impromptu meeting to draw to its distinctly belated end. But unfortunately it seemed that she-cat and kit were not done with him yet, and he soon found himself consigned to further talk; to a tone and a topic that was well and truly out of his depth. It was another simple shift—nothing more than an attempt at apologising—but to the elderly tom it was about as alien a set of words as it was possible to get. His clanmates simply didn’t bother with such things: almost never survived his company or tirades long enough to even try. As such he had no idea how to respond to it or even handle it – could only stare, his eyes a hooded tangle of lingering anger and fresh bewilderment: a near-complete incomprehension of what was going on.
In the end, he settled with doing and saying nothing. Gave way to the necessity of seeming rude, rather than attempting to blunder through yet one more complication that would doubtless lead to further provocation.
But his silence did not guarantee an end to the confrontation. The anger was still very much there, albeit temporarily quieted by guilt and bewilderment, and its lingering proximity ensured that his temper was still all-too-ready to rear yet again. It was merely waiting, and he knew it; still expected a fresh round of judgement and hate to spill from Heatherstorms jaw, and his temper to flare—
Found himself flinching instead, grey eyes snapping downwards as an unexpected pressure emerged at his chest.
This, too, was something to be met with confusion, but he made no effort to retreat or rebuke. Instead he simply held to his silence, eyes softening almost imperceptibly as he felt his lingering, waiting temper inexplicably fade—just a little—and finally accepted a set of offered words for precisely what they were. A simple, wholly honest attempt at reassurance.
…A ‘reassurance’ echoed mere heart-beats later, when the main target of his temper spoke yet one more time, trying for another tone that seemed impossible in the wake of their fight. This he met with a similarly blank response to the attempt at an apology, for it was something belonging almost exclusively to Hawkfeathers time, and offered almost exclusively by the deceased tom’s well-loved form, but here, at least, was a ghost of a stir. A fleeting glimmer of recognition. In these latest words was something that he could almost understand, and though they were greeted with as much scepticism as their predecessors had been bewilderment, they did, at least, pass him by without any additional protest. And when Palekit uttered one more too-hesitant purr, one more follow-up to the unexpected nuzzle, there could only be one response:
“Do as you wish.”
But it was edged with a rare fleck of softness – just enough of a ‘flaw’ to mutter that he had no intention of, or will to, turn the kit away.
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Post by Dusty on Aug 2, 2014 15:43:10 GMT 1
Finally things seemed to be improving. If that was even a word that could be used in this scenario anymore. As his mother apologised and Palekit looked between the two cats it was undeniably clear that the mood of the room would never lift enough to return it back to the way it had been before his mother had entered even. As for before Palekit had entered? Well the kit was sure that he had rather ruined whatever the tom's dayplan had been and more than likely any sliver of good mood he had held also. The thought made the kit sadden and guilt tinged his emotions for a moment.
Still, I never meant for all this to happen...he thought to himself. All I wanted was...urm...What was it he had wanted? He couldn't even remember. It had been a question, but only Starclan knew what it was now. Not that it mattered. He doubted Rabbitfur would be willing to indulge him any further. The old tom was probably begging Starclan to make his mother drag Palekit out of the den as soon as possible.
He blinked away the frown that threatened his face and cleared his head of such thoughts. It wouldn't do to dwell on such negativity. Goodness knows they had had enough of it to go around today. He looked to his mother as she spoke softly to Rabbitfur of Redkit. He smiled and felt tears prickle at his eyes, proud to hear his mother vocally accepting that Redkit was not her or any others fault. He felt his heart pull and a soft purr escaped him. Subconciously his head nodded at her words, an unspoken reassurance that he believed in all she said. He had no doubt she was right. Redkit would not want them to dwell on his passing. He was sure of it, despite having no real memory of his brother. They were twins after all. He had always felt Redkit would have been like him. They would have grown up together and played their days away together. Redkit would have had the same love and faith that Palekit had. No, Palekit did not have to have really met Redkit to know him.
His meandering thoughts about Redkit were broken by his mothers next words. The permission he had been seeking. He smiled happily and it grew when he glanced back to Rabbitfur. 'Do as you wish.' "Thank you!" he said to both of them. "Please can we call this the end of the fighting?" he asked, his eyes flicking between the two of them in an attempt to restrain from appearing to blame one more than the other. "We're all the same clan after all." he added, feeling this a very wise thing to come from such a young feline.
"And don't worry Rabbitfur, I won't bother you lots, I'd only ever come here if I really needed something because I know how busy you are and I know you have lots to do looking after the clan," he rushed, hoping the tom would not feel bitter about him, as if his presence had been forced upon him thanks to the endless arguing.
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Post by Abbydoodle on Aug 24, 2014 21:13:43 GMT 1
Respectable. Rabbitfur doesn’t think he’s respectable? He’s the medicine cat! Who would ever believe he wasn’t respectable?
Heatherstorm felt a tightening in her stomach as a horrendous feeling of guilt enveloped her body. She had made this cat-this guiltless, respectable cat-feel like trash just because she worried over the safety of her son, and obviously over reacted. But it was clear to see that the damage had already been done. She couldn’t easily ameliorate his pain, especially since he so obviously distrusted, or at least disliked her.
She knew there was likely not much she could say to help Rabbitfur. It was obvious that damage had been done to him earlier in life that she could do nothing about; however, that didn’t mean she wouldn’t try, even if it just resulted in another negative reaction.
“Rabbitfur, don’t be ridiculous. You are the medicine cat, for Starclan’s sake. You are one of the most respected cats in all of Waterclan. And you are the last cat I would think who would take into consideration what any other cat thinks of you." She said, taking any babying words from her response.
Heatherstorm knew that he words were likely to be ignored. But she was a queen; it was in her nature to comfort a cat-any cat-that was in pain or distress. The queen’s emerald eyes followed as her kit nuzzled Rabbitfur. She was just about to warn him not to but stopped as she watched the tom’s reaction. His entire persona seemed to change at the mere touch of another cat. While the changes to him were miniscule, the air around her no longer made the fur on her back stand up and it seemed as if their argument was officially over on both sides.
Heatherstorm watched closely as Rabbitfur looked at her son, his eyes seemingly softer and less accusatory than earlier. His response, while not heartwarming, was at the very least sincere. From Rabbitfur, a response without any malice was almost a miracle.
Her attention was then brought to her kit as he pleaded for an end to the argument. She let out a loud sigh, just wanting to leave this den and everything that had happened behind. She placed a smile on her face as she looked at Palekit, becoming him over to her with her tail.
“Of course we can be done sweetie, right Rabbitfur?” She asked, giving him a pleading look to agree. She gave Palekit a small smile and nod, agreeing that they were from the same clan. But what he didn’t know is that it seemed cats within clans almost seemed to argue more than cats from different clans. The skirmished just seemed to be of larger scale when they were in different clans.
“Palekit do you want to stay here with Rabbitfur now? I think I should leave and stretch my legs, maybe grab a piece from the fresh kill pile. Are you hungry? Maybe…Maybe Rabbitfur wants something from the fresh kill pile?”
Heatherstorm felt her time was over in this den. Perhaps if Palekit was to spend time in there, she could go on a short patrol soon. He was getting older after all, and would eventually be an apprentice, meaning she would need to go back to her warrior duties.
OOC: Sorry I kinda had lack of inspiration and felt that Heatherstorm was basically done her ^^
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Post by Greymuzzles on Nov 29, 2014 18:44:39 GMT 1
Ooc: Sorry for how late this is – muse has been super temperamental the last few months, and every time I think I’ve started to get it working again, it’s made a point of proving me wrong |: Also want to apologise for how ramblish this post is. Was having problems with it / Rabbitfur, and am getting to be somewhat rusty with writing in general, I’m afraid XP
Bic: ‘You are one of the most respected cats in all of Waterclan’
It was a simple comment, and one that many might think would go without saying, but to the aging medicine cat it was an almost inconceivable notion: the words of a cat half mad, or at the very least an outright lie. He’d seen little evidence to support such an idea in any of his long moons as the clan’s one and only healer—had found no signs of the esteem he knew his predecessor had born—and what few signals he might have caught in his long life had long since vanished into the past – were more likely the work of misinterpretation than true glimpses of the regard held by other holders of his role. He knew well enough with what attitude he was viewed by his peers, after all, and it was not what this she-cat would now have him believe.
Which was why he narrowed his eyes at her, barely resisting the impulse to growl another retort: to start their argument anew.
Of course. The little runt can’t possibly have feelings, right? Can’t possibly care…
It was a response that he kept firmly to himself, for he was in truth already too spent to face another round of spiting invective so soon after the last—couldn’t shake the softer edge set into him by the kitten’s unexpected nuzzle—and he knew that to speak them would do no good. They were better wrapped in silence and betrayed only by the harsh glint of his darkened eyes, the subtle curl of his lip, the brief lash of his tail-tip: better consigned to the self-same hole he’d chased other such pointless comments down. They would be just one more set of words he would never speak, and of those there were many...far more than any cat, Waterclanner of otherwise, was ever likely to know.
But at least, with this silence, he could be sure their argument would finally meet its close. The she before him should find little more to say on the manner, so long as he kept these lingering flashes of ire from tripping his tongue, and this was something which he could profess to know almost as well as he knew the herbs belonging to his craft. Arguments usually took two, after all, and though it could be easy enough to continue without the encouragement of the other, real ire was something hard to hold to when the other side refused to pitch in – became all but impossible to cling to when both combatants had already had their fill of such animosity…and when their interactions happened to be mediated by one who had no interest in seeing their fight continue.
Palekit was that mediator, whether he knew it or not. It was true that he had bought Heatherstorm to the tom’s den by straying from her sight, but he had showed only the briefest inclination to share in their flared tempers, and that was an inclination long past. Now his only intention seemed to be to see it ended once and for all, and though tension still clung to the medicine cat’s body, still bristled within his fur, he could see well enough that the kit was well on his way to ‘victory’. Whether he believed the she’s words or not, Rabbitfur couldn’t deny that they had lacked the sniping tones of the moments before, and as he looked at her now it was clear enough that she was about as ready to see this end as he: that she might just be holding her tongue in check just as he had not moments before.
And he’d be lying if he’d try to say he wasn’t relieved.
Growling in vague, wordless consent—both at the kit’s imploring and the she-cat’s pleading gaze—the elderly tom finally stirred himself from his place and limped back to his herbs, well aware that he’d need to review what he needed to avoid foolish mistakes. Arguments tended to play havoc with the memory, after all, and he wouldn’t allow himself to collect the wrong herbs, or omit to collect something that should be on his list: would rather lose more time by double-checking than run the risk. But he still kept an ear on his company as he moved to see to this task, and though his gaze remained fixed on the herbs, the plants he’d removed from the stock, he was well aware of the words still falling into the cool air of his den. Soon found a fresh growl falling from his own maw.
“If you don’t wish to bother me, kit, you’d best start by cutting down the rambling. That twittering of yours’d rival a sparrows.” It was an exasperated grumbling, but not exactly unkind: more directed at the sheer speed of Palekit’s assurances than the length or shape they took. It was accompanied, too, by a side-long stare that somehow lacked some of the steel it should have held, and though his gaze hardened some when it inevitably tracked to the queen, the challenge it sent her was not quite as pronounced as it might have been. Might almost have been missed…perhaps turned aside with relative ease.
“I’ve work to do. If I’m to eat, it’ll be later.”
And with that the medicine cat twisted back to his herbs, belatedly returning the last of the still-usable sorted plants to their rightful places in his store.
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